It's raining

It's raining.

I go outside, and start walking. I head down the street and past the elementary school and through two intersections. I am soaked to the bone in about five minutes flat. That's when I start to run. I run so fast that my lungs start to ache and my legs burn, and finally when I cannot move another step I fling myself down on my back in the middle of the high school soccer field.

Once, I took acid here during a thunderstorm like this one. I lay down and watched the sky fall. I imagined the raindrops melting away my skin. I waited for the one stroke of lightning that would arrow through my heart, and make me feel one hundered percent alive for the first time in my whole sorry existence.

The lightning, it had its chance, and it didn't come that day. It doesn't come this morning, either.

So I get up, wipe my hair out of my eyes, and try to come up with a better plan.

FISH

Once, when I was a kid, I flushed my pet goldfish down the toilet. Keeping it cooped up in that tiny bowl somehow didn't seem right to me, and I wanted it to be free. Maybe someday finding his goldfish parents. It wasn't until years later that i found out the water from the toilets didn't lead to the sea. (Thats when i got to learn about the sewers and all)

At that moment i thought about what my goldfish would think. Expecting to emerge in the deep blue sea but ending up swimming in deep shit.