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It's raining

It's raining.

I go outside, and start walking. I head down the street and past the elementary school and through two intersections. I am soaked to the bone in about five minutes flat. That's when I start to run. I run so fast that my lungs start to ache and my legs burn, and finally when I cannot move another step I fling myself down on my back in the middle of the high school soccer field.

Once, I took acid here during a thunderstorm like this one. I lay down and watched the sky fall. I imagined the raindrops melting away my skin. I waited for the one stroke of lightning that would arrow through my heart, and make me feel one hundered percent alive for the first time in my whole sorry existence.

The lightning, it had its chance, and it didn't come that day. It doesn't come this morning, either.

So I get up, wipe my hair out of my eyes, and try to come up with a better plan.

FISH

Once, when I was a kid, I flushed my pet goldfish down the toilet. Keeping it cooped up in that tiny bowl somehow didn't seem right to me, and I wanted it to be free. Maybe someday finding his goldfish parents. It wasn't until years later that i found out the water from the toilets didn't lead to the sea. (Thats when i got to learn about the sewers and all)

At that moment i thought about what my goldfish would think. Expecting to emerge in the deep blue sea but ending up swimming in deep shit.

Vampire?

About three things I was absolutely positive.

First, she is not a vampire. Short, clumsy, and her skin is definitely not pale white and ice cold. Hmm her breath is kinda sweet though but the other stuff don't match so I'm sure.

Second, there was a part of her - and I didn't know how dominant that part might be - that did not thirst for my blood. Well I bet she wouldn't drink my blood unless there was no more water left on this earth.

And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with her.

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A Love Letter

I've always kept it secret, but I'm constantly thinking of you. I ignore you, but I'm constantly thinking of you. The truth of the matter is I'm always thinking of you. I like you because you are honest, like a clear blue sky. I like you because your kindness is as boundless as the sea. The day I cut my hair too much, I was embarrassed to meet you. I was secretly looking at your profile. I wondered what I would do if you came to hate me.

What colours do you like?
What music do you like?
What kind of clothes do you like?
What hairstyle do you like?
What kind of person do you like?

I really wanted to ask you. You are where you can hear me, but I don't say anything to you. I say everything inside my heart. I like you. I like you. I like you. A hundred times, a thousand times, I can't say it enough. The night is over now. The sky is growing brighter. The light coming through the curtains is falling on this letter. Knowing that all I have to do is stretch out my fingers a little and you are there makes me smile. With you this close, I fall in love.

I've never seen a shooting star. I've never made a wish on a magic lamp. I don't need a dream. I have nothing to wish for. I only want to be with you. So don't let go of me. I'm actually not strong. I become lonely easily. So please don't let go of me. Please don't ever let go. "I wonder if I will be discovered one day. I wonder if she'll figure me out." When I thought that it made my heart race. Like a precious treasure to a child I hid my feelings. I've always kept it secret, but I'm constantly thinking of you. I ignored you, but I'm constantly thinking of you. The truth of the matter is I'm always thinking of you.